Only Hope Remains
Well we received some very painful and heartbreaking news this morning.
Due to the complications Courtney has been experiencing all week the doctor recommended she have an ultrasound done this morning to check things out. So Courtney and Wanda went to the doctor’s office to have the procedure done. Much to our dismay the results confirmed the worst, we have lost the baby.
I am still in Des Moines, and so Courtney called me immediately with the results. We both sat in tearful silence as we pondered the news. I didn’t know what to say and neither did she except for “I am so sorry.” Sorry for what I am not sure, because neither of us had done anything that required an apology, but it just seems like that is the thing to say in times of shared sorrow.
Later I called her back to get more medical details about what happens next, what her current condition was, and so on. Wanda was taking her back to their house to stay until I can get back tonight. She told me what the doctor had said, and how she would have to have D&C tomorrow at 12:30 pm. She also told me that she had called her mother to tell her the news, and that after joining Courtney in her tears she shared that just this morning God had given her the following verse, and that it must have been for Courtney.
Romans 5:2b-5
And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
Boy was she right. What a perfect verse for this tragedy. In this time of loss we can cling to nothing greater than hope in our Savior Christ Jesus. The Creator and Sustainer of all things. The light in the darkness. The Living Water. He never disappoints us. Even in this broken and depraved world of death, loss, and corruption He never fails nor forsakes us.
So this day we cling to our everlasting hope in the Almighty One. We rejoice in the fact that our baby is currently in the arms of his/her Heavenly Father, and hold on to the promise that one day we will get to see him/her in a land where death has no hold and all things are made right. This does not mean we fail to hurt or mourn, but only that when our mourning is complete He will still be there to pick up the pieces and lead us forward.
I will end with another big thank you to all our friends and family who have prayed, called, emailed, twittered, texted, cried, cooked, drove, and loved. You are the reason we know that hope exists. You show us who Christ really is and for that reason we can continue to persevere.
Please continue to lift Courtney and I up while we recover physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. Life may be gone, but hope still remains.
–Micah

